Tana Mongeau released a 43 minute long video about her recent marriage to Jake Paul titled “the truth abut everything”.
She said, “I am so unhappy with the way my relationship with Jake looks in the public eye. I think I just put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself. And that’s not his fault and I’m not blaming him for that at all. It’s just the reality. I don’t regret it.”
“I was so consumed. It was the best feeling in the world being so on the same page with someone, it was like a drug…Something that was making me the happiest, most motivated and inspired I’d ever been was also simultaneously helping me succeed and achieve so many dreams that I’d had. I was just so enamored,” she said.
“I realize that Jake, he’s like me in a lot of ways. He’s easily bored and easily enticed by new things. I didn’t want to lose him…It was almost like a switch flipped in my head, that was like whatever he wants to do, I want to do. It was fun and funny to make the clout jokes and make Jake laugh and make Jake probably think that I cared about clout,” she said. “But it was a lot more than that and it’s my fault for not expressing that…I wanted to be what he wanted, which looking back is also so unhealthy.”
She said their marriage started “as a joke” originally, adding, “I think the second he said ‘I do’ to me, he kind of mentally was like, ‘Now what?’ I think he mentally was also over it. I don’t blame him but it left me clinging, trying to make this work. I wanted to be the cool girlfriend that he never had. I feel like an open relationship to Jake was him still being able to have sex with a new bitch every night.”
“I wanted to maintain this image of not caring. I feel like I should have been far more transparent with him and myself and the world. Everything is filled with people telling me how stupid I look for the 30,000 time this year and telling me they’re so disappointed in me for not standing up for myself and being a boss bitch. It’s hard because I don’t know what I feel…I’m just sad. I’m sick of my image being a door mat.”
She said that despite this, she cannot imagine separating from Jake. She explained, “A lot of these things have really woken me up and I feel like I’ve learned so much, so one day it will be a good thing. I don’t know where I’m at right now. Jake and I both have these psycho busy lives and trying to fit each other in to just gets harder and harder, and so many things keep hurting me further. I don’t ever want to be on bad terms. I don’t ever want to hate each other. I don’t ever want to not be friends. There will always be a part of me that will open my heart to him.”
She added, “I wish every day him and I could get back to the way we were because it was magic. But I don’t know if everything that’s happened will ever allow that. All I know, if I do know one thing, is that I can’t look like someone’s bitch for any longer. And I just want Jake to be happy. I don’t want to hold him back.”
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