The Queer Eye star revealed he is a “member of the beautiful HIV-positive community.”
Jonathan Van Ness will release his memoir Over the Top: A Raw Journey to Self-Love on September 24. However, he talked to The New York Times before its release and opened up about many of his struggles.
The Fab Five member revealed, “I’ve had nightmares every night for the past three months because I’m scared to be this vulnerable with people. I was too fat, too femme, too loud and too unlovable”. Jonathan also revealed that he used to take a lot of hard drugs during his childhood in Illinois.
The 32-year-old stated that he had “a lot of compounded trauma”. Adding that he was a survivor of sexual assault which “planted the seed for other self-destructive behaviors.”
Furthermore, Van Ness opened up about when he tested positive for HIV at 25-years-old. Saying, “That day was just as devastating as you would think it would be.” He stopped using drugs after the diagnosis.
Talking about HIV Jonathan added, “When ‘Queer Eye’ came out, it was really difficult because I was like, ‘Do I want to talk about my status?’ And then I was like, ‘The Trump administration has done everything they can do to have the stigmatization of the L.G.B.T. community thrive around me.”
“I do feel the need to talk about this,” the professional groomer further said.
“These are all difficult subjects to talk about on a makeover show about hair and makeup.” Adding: “That doesn’t mean Queer Eye is less valid, but I want people to realize you’re never too broken to be fixed.”
His memoir Over the Top will hit shelves on September 24.
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